im on here.....

so i remembered that i had this gay thing....so...im back maybe if you know im here you should find me and help me learn how to use it

pan handle

so has anyone ever pan handled? beacause me and cody did it today in old sacramento. we both made 9 bucks. what do you think of that. ill tell you what i think. it's pretty dang sweet. that may be my new profession. that's right.....pan handling.

sub question-
anyone ever experience "sightings" if you will, or instances, or scenarios, or whatever that reminds you of someone? let me tell you......for an hour and a half straight today on several occasions did that happen to me. coinsidence or sign? im not really sure.

sub question-
why is it that you can be so ridiculously in love with someone but they aren't with you? my thoughts.......because nothing ever works out the way you want it. realize this and life will be made simple. thats it. get over it. because nothing you do or say to "the one" will matter until they decide that you are too.

tie the knot

you raised my cross
you dug the ditch
where i crashed my car
you sharpened the knife
you locked the door
to my flooding house
you loaded the empty gun
you tied my noose
you're the reason
that i'm a slave
it's all your fault
you dug my grave

you tied my noose
you dug my grave
everytime you speak
i die inside
because every single word
was never true anyway

beginnings

i gaze into the mirror
and interpret only grief
i stand, scared and alone
another victim of love's thief

sac town

sittin in sac at cody's and jeff's place and all i can think about is her.......why do girls have such a power over you that you can't even control your thoughts? also why do girls choose to break your heart over and over and over again when they know good and well what they are doing? i'll tell you why.......because they aren't nice

Apathy's Love Song

i left your house that night with a broken heart
and prayed it wouldnt end like this
you said to me we could never be
you said to me we could never ever be

im sorry for giving you my heart and my soul
im sorry for the time i said you were beautiful
im sorry for the prmises you made to me
apparently true love can fade away

i try my best to pick the pieces up
but the harder i try the more broken i become
you said to me we could never be
you said to me we could never ever be

im sorry for giving you my heart and my soul
im sorry for the time i said you were beautiful
im sorry for the promises you made to me
apparently true love can fade away

you said to me we could never be
you said to me we could never ever be

i didnt ask for this
i didnt deserve this
i gave you everything i had
i treated you so well
you loved me, well,
maybe you never ever did